♥ Rawr....life does suprise!

im grateful

2008-09-02T11:07:00.001+08:00

i've read this article from a magazine (i forgot which one though)about being grateful for any little things that happened to your life, be it a phone call from your long lost friend, a long rest after a week-long hectic schedule, a call from your mother or whatever good happy things that brings you a smile and write it all down in a journal for which i think, it is a very good idea. somehow along the way, you might look back what you have wrote, and thinks that hey, your life aint that bad after all.

so as an attempt to make my life a healthier and a happier lifestyle, i have decided to write each 5 happy things each day. anything. small or big or huge, even a smile from a baby is counted.

so here it goes, my first accounts of being grateful,

im grateful

...for the lesser of cars this morning. the lesser the car, the smoother the road is.
...for the boss is not around the office the whole week! yeah! can surf porn now.ok la kidding oni ok
...for him to drive me to work each morning and back =D muacks!
...for the light kisses we had each morning. it perks up any working blues away.
...for being thanked for by clients. you know you made my day.

ok! thats all! will continue my duty tomorrow then!

call on me.

2008-08-13T15:35:00.002+08:00

cleanse my face. put on my mascara.

so i have decided.

easy as it seems, going it through was a definite hassle. the term has been all over my mind for god knows how long.

as at of now, im still being doubtful. doubtful of how this would turn up. contemplating . mysterious yet thrilling, alluring my mind. how am i not to caught in it?

you tell me.

lost in confusion. aye.

2008-08-06T19:37:00.003+08:00

'aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~'

*scratches head* yes. i have practically bugged everyone on my ym with this. i cant help it. i need to release it somewhere. hehehehe sorry la guys, but i know u guys are the best in relieving my tensions =D i love it when you all replied or layan my message, which makes my miserable overtime a happier time for me! friends are the best. dont you think so? heehee

love u guys! muacks!

one more time ya...

aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

falling slowly. once.

2008-05-17T03:52:00.002+08:00

Glen Hansard - Falling Slowly (ONCE OST)

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

a land. beyond it.

2008-05-15T18:00:00.008+08:00

Pink cards and flowers on your window. you dreaded the day to come, yet you anticipate the adrenaline rushing from your littlest tingle of your nerve to your skin. do you expect to hush it as some normal clashes? or do you execute it as something beyond abnormal. you tell me.

vietnam is a serene land. i fake you not. in fact it's as noisy as the cats meowing to each other during mating season. rushes of motorcycles. dusts made from tricycles. buses. cars. taxis. people. all making a scene from the past. walking on the road itself is just pure ecstasy. grabbing the arms of another to avoid being overridden by man made motors is just another whole new adventure to begun with. i love how the arts are being placed. i love how the bears are being sewn together in place with a little tiny traditional hat to match with (i regretted a lot for not getting it). adorable. yes. it is said that the people of vietnam values the tranquility of life. it stays true to it's words. little stools and tables decorated the streets. noodles and pork meats (dog meats) serves as delicacy for the taste buds. drinking beers to see how the world goes by. a thread i saw most of them had to pass their everyday dots. i marveled at how complicated the electric wires wired together. such wonder.

the thing i missed most about it? the people. the tranquility. the innocence. the values.

non existent. aint you?

2008-05-07T10:48:00.004+08:00

hypocrites. i call them.

...vintage ish ♥♥♥

2008-04-23T10:44:00.008+08:00

so.

my first post for the month of april. the no-good-for-nothing month. why? because its the month of no holidays in sight. really sorry for any long delay, if there's any reader at all. it seems that i have lost touch of what i had before. the touch of alphabets, words, sentences, paragraphs, well everything. you know, im trying my best.

things has been going pretty hectic for me. whats with day time works and underground meetings all jumbled up together in my routines. what? underground meetings you asked? something we are working for, for our future. in fact, the underground meeting this sunday? i haven't a least bit prepare. god please help me.

i've been trying to find something for his big day. buying something for a guy is really a big headache for me. guys are so lucky, because buying things for girls are so easy these days, with pretty little things all decorated around gift shops, you can find absolutely anything that pleases a girl. no wonder girls are getting more pampered and materialistic nowadays. but it's not the case with guys. sigh. im thinking something that stands out. something that he wont ever buy for himself. something that will give himself a statement. something that he will be proud of. something that also, blows my account. *rolleyes* oh! maybe i can get........

hmmm... never mind, let me scurry back to my research again.

don't you just think vintage design is ♥? it's double the ♥♥ even more when it's back in the 40's. im so in love with all things vintage.

Celebration of Vintage & Retro Design
a celebration of vintage of the vintages!

images courtesy of Smashing Magazine

...if i could see the world

2008-03-27T14:32:00.003+08:00

countless thoughts running through my head. so much things to say. so many words to speak. but i cant find my voice...

...how true are thou are

2008-03-25T10:00:00.003+08:00

Horoscope for the day.

"Someone may want to be encouraging to you, but you might not receive the message correctly. Don't mistake silence for negativity. If you aren't sure what others are thinking, just ask them outright. But remember that everyone has conflicting motives now, so the advice you get could be more confusing than practical. Be patient; clarity will return in the next couple of days.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 "

how true are thou are.

...sneezes like nobody business!

2008-03-05T10:51:00.005+08:00

Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrdy flu is attacking me again! i've been sneezing non-stop since last night and people have been looking at me with weird stares in the lrt. just because im the one making those loud noises...sigh...sorry la...cannot control (and if i do control..my face will be looking like someone who is holding shit in her ass..and then it will add the doubles of weird stares)...what to do =( my nose is soooo runny that i feel like plucking my nose right out of my face! seriously! *sobs* see! my goo is gooing out from my nose again! wheres my tissue....arghhh wheres my tissue ah????? *frantically searching for tissue over mountains of used tissues* why am i always sick wan =(

any well known home made remedy to calm my nose for a bit? i only know one though, the traditional drink of hot honey with lemon.

please pretty please? *sobs sobs*

...so i want to be me

2008-02-27T11:00:00.004+08:00

What am i doing here?

im suppose to be doing great things. im suppose to get things done. im suppose to be proud of myself. im suppose to make something out of ordinary. all these has been making me feeling frustrated. i listen to too much crap. i minded everyone's view about me.

every now and then, i've been seeing myself in another world. where the sky is so blue and the grass is greener than everything else. clutching my own worn jacket, sipping my own caramel macchiato, talking with friendly neighborhood people, working and serving people with a smile, and doing the simple daily life tasks. i do love my life now, but sometimes i would catch a glimpse of another world of another me, and me, in reality, looking longingly at it.

i wish to let go everything, leave everything behind, pack up and go along the road that stretches continuously...

...tears and laughters

2008-02-04T16:49:00.000+08:00

If you could see me now. a book i read that causes my tears non stop. cecelia ahern. has officially became one of my most favorite authors. coincidently, a movie is going to be made based on the book. musical, is more like it. and according to some sources, hugh jackman is gonna be in it. it will be awesome for him to be ivan. the guy that makes it so magical in it. it will become my most anticipated movie for now.

and why isnt ps.i love you being on screen in malaysia? why? why?

...blues and purples

2008-01-15T10:58:00.000+08:00

three's a crowd

yellow spidey

winding bamboos

fishermen

i would love to be back in terengganu again. peaceful and laidback. lovely beaches and summery breeze crosses along your hair. it's a superb place for beautiful photos. i wonder why didn't the government think of developing it? it's such a waste. but then again, perhaps it would be wise to preserve what it has now. oh, im so contradicting to myself. enjoy the photos =) taken by my poor devalued manual slr. sobs.

...skies & chocolates

2008-01-09T14:50:00.000+08:00

Legs and foots pattered towards klcc during lunch. crowded as it is, somehow it still look empty without the giant tree at the center. its a sight that im still not use to it since christmas. went around and around. looking for something that best suited for her. but we just cant seem to find anything. in the end we bought 2 mugs thinking that she got to use it as her coffee mug during her stay in penang =)

fast forward to dinner. we had such nice dinner with them. it feels so warm and joyful. i really will miss her for the whole 9 months. the things we had done together for 5 years. the things we had done for the years in Uni. i wont forget that. i feel happy for her that she found something that she really wanted to do in her life. i feel encourage by her motivation to turn her life around. i feel awed by her bravery. to take on something that she never steps on. to be somewhere that she never have been off. i feel so envious on her. she gets to move the life that she's on now.

my cellphone rang tonight signified an sms is received.

"Dear all ji mui, reach here safely. now orientation week. other than have 2 stand under the sun da rest just easy job oni. i can online after dis week. so c u guys soon."

all i can say is, roomie! take care of yourself okies! we will definitely miss u alot! =D muacks & huggles~

...butters & beers

2008-01-04T10:56:00.001+08:00

Friday today and it is cold in the office indeed. hazy clouds covered the whole overland of skies. the smell of something burning instantly touching the tip of my nostrils. is there something burning again somewhere? i wonder. cars are not much on the road. seems like everyone are still on holidays. caught on something about space adventure on the radio. im interested with that. i wanna go too.

friday today and i feel so delighted with it. happy hours will soon come in the matter of hours. be patient my dear. as lots of works are still waiting for me to tend to. should i go for a movie tonight? or should i be pigging out on my bed? i need to wash my hair and do the laundry you know.

friday today and im feeling so lazy. i find being invisible highly attractive. why is that? being something there but you're not there. when's the time gonna start? i start to think that it wont start at all. waiting and waiting. waiting for an invisible friend. an imaginary friend. i would cocoon myself.

friday today and im sharing my feelings with my imaginary friend.

...wines & bouquets

2008-01-01T00:22:00.000+08:00

I can still hear the fireworks in the distance. bright lights surrounds KLCC that shouts attention. huge bang of sounds. crackles of splash. patters of feet ran along the hallway of my apartment. childrens and mothers gathered around the rooftop just to get a glimpse of the fireworks. it seems that theres no space left for me to join in. i watched through my window instead. thing is only a tiny wee bit of sparkles can be seen in such distance. and somehow that still keeps the excite in me.

so now that 2007 is gone, here comes another year. 2008. oh my, how the days are gone. just like that. i don't even know what i have done for the past year. days just pass by without any acknowledgment. my acknowledgment to be exact.

resolutions you ask? i've never made any resolutions for myself. weird? why make any resolutions when you dont bother on making it a reality. and thats so like me. i use to make those back when i was in highschool, but unfortunately, i failed to keep those things up to it. since then, i've stopped making any for fear of not keeping any of it. so do you still make resolutions for yourself?

Happy New Year! =D

...sweets & candles

2007-12-23T11:26:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday!

yay. its my birthday today. im year older now after stepping into adulthood for 4 years already =) and im stll enjoying it to the last bit before i turn to the big three o =x and i still have yet to own a loli dress =(

in the meantime, christmas is coming. in another 2 days time. gifts will be opened. joys and laughter can be heard throughout the town. joyous carolers sharing the heart and spirit of christmas to all of us. while im still mesmerizing by the magical theme of christmas, lets wish to each other, and you out there, to have a very Merry Christmas! =D May the joy brings you glad tidings, may you have a wonderful time with your loved ones! *huggles*

...golden lollipop

2007-12-07T16:57:00.001+08:00

Golden compass is out this weekend! owhmigawsh! i can't believe that it's finally here! =) im so excited! for one thing, golden compass is one of the best damn novel that i've read so far. EVER. honest. its becoming a fast favourite of mine though im still in the middle of reading the author's 3rd book of the trilogy. yes i know. i cant be expecting or putting up my hopes too high on the movie. since you know, there's already a long line of history of movies being adapted from novel or games that are just far away from the original creator which has leads to lots of disappointments to their fans (eg, residence evil, harry potter and such) but nevertheless, i still have that feeling of excited euphoria in me! i cant wait to watch it!

lots of controversy has erupted due to this movie and the novel itself. rumours is that Dark Materials (which is the trilogy that golden compass belongs to) by Phillip Pullman is a book full of God-deception, anti-God, or teaching children to kill God, overall, it was said its a book with a hidden meaning. It was learned that the author itself is an atheist. thus the logic of coming out a book with such aim. so people out there is saying the movie is a bad influence for childrens. they even want to boycott the movie.

i have read the book. and im a Christian myself. now i dont think the book has any connection to Christianity and such. sure, it did touched a bit of religion here and there, but its just a fiction. a fiction with strong stories, fantasy dwellings and dangerous adventures. for me, i think the book is just purely adventure. beautifully written, and smitten you to no extend. yes. i admit i love the book! =p anyway, the point is, lets look on the other side. its just pure fantasy story, whats there to argue or to hide? the author might be an atheist, but it doesnt affect the fact that the book is just purely fictional.

and i think they should have find a person with black shiny hair instead of the goldie hair of nicole kidman =( but i cant wait to see pantailaimon & iorek =) they are my most favourite characters inside. did you see pantalaimon? omg, he's soooo cute =D

...squishes & droplets

2007-12-06T13:26:00.000+08:00

Cold morning. 6:45am. woke up. feeling tired and cold. tried to snooze a little, but to no avail. grey sky. very gloomy indeed. where is the blue sky that was shining like an amour yesterday? had a cold shower. the water is freezing cold. but it perks me up. phua chu kang is on the radio again. doing his daily calls on the breakfast show of mix fm. he lightens up the mood. doing what's his best of, making craps.

went to work. saw lots of people on the station. all walks of life. different faces. different jackets. different bags. different glasses. office people. cleaning lady. traveling people. students loafing around. i wonder what are they thinking in their mind at that time? is the mother worried about her child at home while she's rushing for work? is the girl still on a high note of what happened last night with her boyfriend? or i wonder, maybe the guy in the black suit is thinking of heading for a breakfast somewhere at starbucks. and owh! the lady over there must have forgotten something, her face is full of dismay. should i help her? owh, what a warm family they have here, having a warm breakfast together before going anywhere else. i like the feeling. i wish to have that kind of breeze over me. for i wish to make the breeze be as real as possible. be as memorable as possible. for as long as i can remember. for as long as i can treasure. for as long as.....for as long as till when?

and so the rain has decided to release itself. prickles & droplets of water that i can feel it on my skin. why is it not painful? do water has feelings? do they cry? is that why there's such thing as 'rain'? and that is why the gloomy sky? dark and grey. it reflects my mood oh so well. grey colors. grey tone of colors. what any other grey available out there? please tell me so. i need colors. more colors. please.

owh fuck, i forgot to bring my own umbrella.

...gloomy. rainy. morning.

2007-11-21T13:12:00.000+08:00

so ya, give your 100% at work, ok? don't procrastinate and don't keep superpoking your friends in facebook! i know you're doing that =p. this make sense a lot to me. but does that mean i have to work the most today? awww....*wishing friday fast fast come~*

Have a great wednesday ahead! =)

...circles & snow

2007-11-14T13:44:00.000+08:00

Yay! christmas is coming! someone said im freaky the other day. for listening to christmas songs. i AM listening to christmas songs right now. and whats so freaky about it? i think its normal, don't' you think so? he said its way too early to listen to it, and he finds it freaky, hahahaha. well maybe yes, perhaps its a little wee bit early for me to be in a holiday mood. but i always gets excited and happy whenever christmas is coming. maybe because it's one of my most favourite celebration, thats all.

isn't funny when we were younger, we were told stories of santa clause and the red nosed reindeer. and we children would really believe that eventhough deep in our thoughts, we actually doubt it? and christmas movies showing fantasy elves living on the north pole? hehe. i still remember i used to wait for santa during the night, hoping to see pressies underneath the christmas tree the next day, which actually of course it never happen. but i still wait for it each year till im all grown up and all over the santa stories. main point is, stories like these made my childhood much more livelier and exciting =)

im gonna shop for things before the crowd really comes in! happy shopping guys! =)

...heartsy hearts

2007-11-12T16:21:00.000+08:00

gorgeous baby

owhmigawsh. this doll is absolutely gorgeous. can you see the details of the shirt, the necklace, the skirt..the everything? its just so amazingly done. *hearts hearts hearts* im definitely gonna look out for this one!

images courtesy of momokodolls.com

...shopaholics & berries

2007-11-09T18:07:00.000+08:00

i love shopping. ok. im desperate for shopping. ok. i wont feel myself if i cant get to shop. ok fine. my hand just itches itself if it cant feel the pure cottony feeling of something shiny & glamorous that undoubtedly and unreasonably makes my hand gleeing with pleasure. i think this is what most shopaholics will feel. right? right? u dont deny ok? hahahaha....anyway, yes im a shopping freak. im a freakin shopaholic who can shop hours & hours & hours non stop. guys, i think you would marveled at how your wifes or girlfriends are able to walk up and down without feeling tired but otherwise complaining about walking a long walk out of the hot sun. this is perhaps, one of the wonders that only one species in the world had, women =)

i can't really explain why shopping is so damn exciting for me. its just the thrill. whenever i hear the word 'shopping', my eyes would shone with glee & excitement. yes i know im exaggerating it, but thats what really happened in me. if i don't get to shop in a week, i feel something is missing in my life. perhaps it gets me up to a mood that is indescribable. whenever im stress, i shop. whenever im sad, i shop. whenever im feeling depress, i shop again. and of course, whenever im happy, i shop, again. nonetheless, this has resulted of bundles and bundles of clothes in my closet at home.

okla, actually women is not that crazy as it sounds ok. hahaha, i think if a guy read what i wrote, they sure scare of me already. ahahaha. we are not that scary ok, we can control ourselves from our addiction =p.

anyway, the story is not about women's addiction. its about something i found from by doing some online shopping. a new method that strike a wholesome addiction as well, similar to the euphoria of shopping physically. i find it addictive. again. whenever i shop something on the net, i get excited. i get this feeling when i know a parcel will be sent to me tomorrow. and when i received it, its exhilarating.

now i know some people out there is still skeptical about shopping online. friends would ask me why im confident enough that the opposing party wouldn't cheat on me. well, for the first time, yes, i do feel insecure about the idea of buying something online, and transferring your money online, and who knows, the next day, the person would lost himself in cyberspace and never to be found by you again. so i started slow. i started bidding online in a blogger's website. i know she is trustable as i've read lots of comments about her. so i started by buying something cheap. perhaps a tee thats worth rm20. thats when the addiction started. then i start to browse for other websites that does online shopping. i like it when i could just browse in my own leisure time and clicking, turning page by page, examine each photos of the clothes or stuffs they are offering without the hassle of being harass by some sales person. and when i get to see something i like, i buy it. and the next thing i knew, i receive the parcel the next day. and its exciting to receive a parcel ok, that is for me. =p

to decide if the website is trustable, search for people who reviews it. ask people who have bought things from them. are they secured? are they trustable? do they send items that are in perfect condition? i usually do some research before i really get down the road. its what makes me feels confident about that certain party that im dealing with. and so far, its successful.

to start helping your work much easier, i would recommend some nice websites that i have found recently.

Aurora Boutique
they have really nice quality clothes. i have done a few transactions with them before, and i can say that im pleased with their service. what's more, they send the items to you on time.

Shopaholics Unite!
they are a bunch of nice people =) nice clothes they have, and they stay true to their words =) and yes, its save to buy from them.

Gossips
one of the boutiques that sells really quality clothes and items. they so many varieties that you are not sure which to choose!

Cats Whiskers
i bet most of the girls would have heard about this one. its one the more popular boutiques around. it has it own shops of course, but they do online shopping too.

PotatoCream.com
this online boutique actually belongs to my friend =D their clothes are mostly from hong kong, taiwan, korea or japan. i must say they do have some lovely clothes! very much suitable for the princess in the heart in you.

Scoop KL
ok this is for the ones who craves every thing branded, but couldn't really afford one. this shop actually sells branded and i mean original branded stuffs at a much much lower price! take your time to browse through and you are bound to find one that you like =) (ps, they have lovely bags though =x)

and so, happy shopping! =)

...cramps & lolipops

2007-11-08T13:59:00.000+08:00

i feel sick. very sick. i hate pms moments. i hate cramps. i hate my first and second day. i feel tired and crampy. someone please help get me out of the office, and find a way back to my home, to my bed... =(

i woke up as usual, ready for work, went to the bathroom, and lo and behold, i feel nausea and almost fainted. i grabbed and pulled the door out, rush for the living room's plushy sofa, and pushing my whole weight onto it, damn, whats wrong with me? im having cold sweats, my legs are feeling weak and wobbly. wait a minute, my whole body feels weak. food poisoning came into my mind, i thought i was hit by it. but after resting for awhile, i tried another second try for the bathroom, and same thing happened. now what is fucking wrong with me? then i decided to go back upstairs, and lie on the bed. baby was shock to see my face covered in white, asked me whats wrong, and told me to not go to work. i lie down for 30 minutes and decided i have taken a lot of mc before, might as well give myself another chance to get up, and i feel a whole lot better, despite the annoying stinging cramp on my abdomen. and at last, i finally came to work.

in fact, im still having severe cramps & headaches. so, im still thinking, should i take a half day off today instead? hurmmm....

in the end, i stayed the whole day through office, covering my pain ashen face, and being all smiley. life, thats it.

...pink flush & blueberry croissant

2007-11-07T18:33:00.000+08:00

isnt she cute? =x

i found this little figurine irresistibly adorable. if you are interested on having one yourself, you can hop over to their website and perhaps do a little preordering before it goes out again =)

...vanilla skies & marshmallow clouds

2007-11-06T13:25:00.000+08:00

Recently i have found out most of the people i know are not anywhere in malaysia. some went for further studies overseas, some went to work at other places. now i do really admire their courage of taking their life a step forward and experience the different environments out there rather than being in their comfort zone. and of course to pursue what they have always wanted in their life. because that's what i would want to do too.

i have been thinking lately to have my own destination too. i want to go somewhere else, perhaps europe or the uk, or anywhere overseas, as long as its out of my own home, to pursue something that i've never done before. long ago, me and one of my good friend, have dreamed of going to europe, backpacking, and working along the trip in europe, its a pleasant wish for us, we have planned and thought that when we reach to a certain age, we promise each other to do something out of ordinary before our life really settle down. but recently, i found out i cant wait any longer anymore than that. after reading numerous stories and stories of people traveling around the world, something just keeps reminding me of my dream, being closer to me, hanging in my head, telling me to do what my heart is thinking. but it is something that's too large of a decision to make. to make it happen, i have to put down everything that im having in my life right now, everything that i have build. i certainly will sacrifice everything for my own dream. but i guess, its till the matter of time, and money. maybe you would think these are just some reasons, but it is not for me.

not that im unhappy with my life right now (except for a few rants here and there), but it's something that is incomplete within me if i decide to push the thought away from me. it's telling me to look up and to conquer the sky and to look for a sky that belongs to me. i really wish to fulfill that part of me.

should i take england?

or perhaps japan?

oh no, my definite yes! place. paris!

while doing my research for my purpose, i found a way that is quite interesting. that is, to be an Au Pair. and what is Au Pair? an au pair placement is an arrangement where an unmarried person between 17 and 30 years old lives for up to two years in a foreign country as a member of a local family, helping in the home for a set number of hours a day, often with at least two full days off per week. In return, they receive a reasonable allowance and a private room. you can try look it up in wiki about this. i found a few sites which is very useful for au pair placement, one of them, Au Pair Replacement, provides an extensive options for an aupair or the host family, each of the party are able to choose and browse through of all the registered host family or the au pairs available in the website. when a family found a suitable au pair, they will communicate to that certain individual for further communication.

now i do really think this a good thing to start for people who have the same wish as me =D perhaps i should start thinking too. well actually, i've registered myself =D who knows? dreams are something we should create by our own hands, am i right?

photos credits to the original author

...disturbing lah

2007-10-11T13:44:00.000+08:00

i was bloghopping and surfing through my usual hangouts, and i accidentally found this piece of advertisement from a blog. somehow i feel that it is disturbing to me. and makes me asking the question that are there people out there that are so into extreme of fashion, that it makes one person to do something out of extraordinary.

are you able to feel the pain on the stump that, if you imagine, a lady does have a feet like that? well i do.

and no. i think i will just pass the idea of visiting the Museum of Contemporary Art in Sydney. thank you.

Credits : Manolo's Shoe Blog

...red roses & chocolate marshmallows

2007-10-08T11:37:00.000+08:00

the story started way back during our uni days. at that time, i barely even know him, well yes, i know he does exist, but thats all. then gaming online was a trend during those days, i was hooked up to a game called MapleStory. and that's where i started to know him more. mostly of our times are chatting together, either on game or even on ym. i find him really funny. i guess i was attracted to his huge sense of humour, and that he was able to make me laugh all the time. we will greet each other normally when we met coincidently around the uni. and that was, just that. nothing else. but we got more closer and knowing each other more than before. friends started to feel suspicious of us, but i just rolled my eyes and said come on, we are just friends. all could think of at that time was, we cant be together. these was 2 years back.

we graduated. we started to find our own jobs. and he, started asking me out. i was surprise, and happy of course, but all i thought was just a simple meeting up with a friend kind of outing, nothing more. so i agreed for a movie. and i remember. it was pirates of the carribeans. friends started to quiz me again, and saying that this are more than just friends. i was ignorant. i told them it can't be, after all...im just an ordinary girl. we went out together for 3 months. as friends. and we got much much closer. and i cant explain to myself, that i got excited whenever the weekends are coming, because that's when we will be going out for a movie. normally on saturdays. soon, things became a habit. and all these was a year ago.

and today, its already a year since we've been together. darling, i can't tell how much happy i am to be with you. you have made every single thing in my life to be so beautiful. we have our moments of sweetness, moments of sulks(yes i know..=p) moments of happiness, moments of fights. but all these are what made me feel loved, by you. you have been the best thing that have ever happened to me in my life. i know sometimes im being selfish and ignorant, but you've put up with my tempers and sulks, and always comforted me soothingly. you have given me lots of love and tender moments that i wont trade for anything. thanks for being there for me, and thanks for being particularly patience with me when im being too irrelevant. i love u so much.

happy anniversary darling.

...blogmosphere

2007-10-06T22:11:00.000+08:00

As the quiet night begins to creep in, im all alone at his house. his is out somewhere attending his colleague's wedding dinner and no, i wasn't invited. im getting abit boring over here. was reading PS I love you, but read awhile and felt abit of a headache. saw the pc, might as well surf around, face-booking and blog awhile. it has been awhile since i blogged. i used to love blogging. in fact, i used to blog a lot back when i was still in the university, but i stopped two years ago. you ask my why? im not sure either, maybe its just the assignments were so heavy that i havent got the time to blog anything at all, or maybe, im just plain being lazy or something. i remember i used to love writing, and thats what got me into blogging in the first place. when i started blogging two years ago, blogmosphere doesn't even exist yet. blogging was a relatively strange new place or some called it media to most of us. i discovered blogging by accident. i was surfing the net and soon found some bloggers that have interesting posts that i kept coming and going for more. i find it very interesting to have an online diary instead of writing in the traditional way on a book. at that time, i find it to be very fascinating. and thats when i decided to start my own blog. i started to write things about my life, my friends, my studies. practically everything, and it somehow attracted a few readers, with 100 over unique visitors visiting and commenting my blog. but than two years ago and i just left my blog abandoned. just like that. and then, two years later, i tried to blog again, when blogmosphere is already such a hit, you can even find any tom, dick and harry haver their own blogs. blogging is already a type of a new medium, and not anymore as a personal diary, i wonder if this is the right thing to happen? maybe it is, considering that everyone is enjoying the success for their blogger celebrity status. but sometimes, i missed the times when everyone is still under anonymously, where everyone will write anything and wont get harassed by some sort of government related authorities. blogging is already such a hit, till even the government has warned an issue on the content that we all are writing. so where have all the freedom of blogging gone to?

blogging, can be very addictive. when i started to blog, the bug just got into me. and i cant figure why i would continue to write and write about my life. i knew that nobody would even care about what i wrote, well who would? but thats the exciting part. you will write about the life of yours, be it private, happy, or anger, its just to release something inside you. and it's fun to write something that you've always wanted to. i started to write a blog because i love writing, with that, i was thinking, well why not, i might be able to practice my writing skill on the blog instead. so, i began to write and write and write, till i get the hang of it. my blog's sudden increase of unique hits a day motivates me to write more. i get to see my readers to leave some comments on my post, it's really amusing to see what they have commented, mostly are encouraging comments, which encourages me more and making me realized that, hey! someone do actually read my blog! this really score a big point to me! and that, began my journey into the world of virtual diary.

so now, two years later, im still trying to start another new blog of mine, another new chapter of myself.

...9 days in counting

2007-09-29T16:19:00.000+08:00

ok....i cant wait!

...another reality bites!

2007-09-05T10:58:00.000+08:00

im on my last day of onleave. will be back to hell tomorrow. and boss even asked to be back on saturday. damn. cant' you even leave me a lone for awhile? Im still contemplating whether to make a decision. I just got confirmed which has delayed me myself of the process. Some say i better to take that plunge. but im still doubtful. doubtful with all damn things. i have lost my goal. i dunno where else i should go to once i've did it. i admit this, im lost once again.

on a happier note, i just love the fireworks in putrajaya. omg, its just absolutely magnificent. u know u just wont get to see it normal in kl, even in new year eves or merdeka eves. its just so different. in fact im left in awe. how the hell the people do those works, i wonder. hehe anyways, yes its worth a trip to putrajaya just to see that 20 minutes of fireworks display. its a short time, but believe me, its worth every shyt of your time =D its a pity i dont have any photos with me, i might upload it within sometimes =D

aww...i missed the finale! sobs sobs!

...harry potter and the deathly hallows

2007-07-23T20:07:00.000+08:00

ya ok, so the title is just...

a title.

hehe.

its not a review. might get it right after i've got my own copy of it ^_^

We had a gathering again last saturday. It was fun and yes i do miss them a lot =D At the same time, we thought of celebrating Soon Chi's birthday together (yes I know we are late! haha...sorry~ soon chi~) My..it was ages since I last saw her. She haven't change much, still the same ol' girl, except that the fact that she is getting prettier =x hehehe We promised to have dinner around klcc, our first plan was actually to have our dinner at Chillis. But known to the fact that all of us are quite dry this month, we thought we might just hang out at Genki's instead. But somehow, we changed our mind, because appearantly, me and san has the same urge for that day. Korean Food! Unfortunately, KLCC does not have any around. And the nearest Korean restaurant that we can think of is actually, Low Yat. =x so yes we change our plans at the very last minute, hailed a cab, and head straight for Low Yat! nontheless, no regret indeed! hehe..muacks, just so love you guys the most! >:D<

So harry potter is having a price war. My sister and i just had a joke about, instead of the book's title, 'Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows', it might as well change to 'Harry Potter and the Battle of the Kedai Buku's' ha! damn funny. call me anything you want, but i think i'll head out to carrefour instead later.

Work is still as hectic and stressful for me, i still long for a loooong holiday! next stop for my destination? definately Bali! of all the places that i've been hearing around people, all of them said Bali is a really really

recently i've been hooked up on a game. it's pretty addictive i might say. granado espada. ever heard of it? the most interesting fact of this game is its some of it's features, example, you are able to control 3 characters at one time. in other words, you don't need to party up with people as you are on your own party. but if u do like to party with other friends or people, you can create a squad, that's what they are called in this game, instead of 'party' and invite other family members to join your squad. this game has won major awards at Korean. some says this might be the next big game after Ragnarok. (ok, i need to say that it is still not as good as WoW! omg. godly game it is!) but the most astonishing thing about this game is its graphic. the graphic are way impressive, and i really mean it. the details that they have done for the rendering and mapping, omg, i cant imagine how much time they have spent. the graphics and the feel or theme as you might say, is elaborate (as per what the 17th centuries eras are) and all the decorations and detailings are soooo, victorianism! hahaha. ok, enough said, go try this game! its worth a try =D

...simple pleasures in life

2007-07-01T03:09:00.000+08:00

i woke up. thinking it was just another usual saturday. and then it struck me. its not any usual saturday, i have to get my butt of to work today. damn! almost every saturday im working. So yea im working this early morning on a beautiful saturday~

Do you realize sometimes that, when you woke up one day, feeling demotivated, and you're just plain feeling of skipping work? well i do. i do all the time. hahaha. But sometimes, some little things in life can make you feeling otherwise. Simple little things that just get your mood back on track. For example, perhaps you are listening to the radio during your drive to work, and the radio somehow are able to crack you up and bring a smile to your face. Or maybe, you are happily choosing of what to wear to work, at least that is a little interest for you to spark your mood up (well at least I do =D ) or perhaps, a date of movie or dinner with friends after work that gets you looking forward for the day. As for me, I tend to overlook all these simple things in life and get pretty demotivated easily. But recently, I learn to appreciate what these things can do to me. For example, I love fashion, so which means, I love dressing up =D and I made it a way every morning, to choose what to wear nicely to work, at least it perks up my mood somehow that even if I felt like a drab, but my mood is better when I get to know I look pretty.

And for this morning, I brought a simply little thing to my office, so to brighten up my days.

Meet Pinky! =D

These are just some little pleasures in life. =D

Pinky will be with me as long as Im working, she will be there, smiling up to me, telling me 'its ok dear, everything will be ok' ......to brighten up my days ^_^ (thanks darling~)

...my firstpost at blogspot

2006-06-17T10:51:00.000+08:00

i've been trying to look for a nice weblog for myself, it's not that i have never blogged before, in fact i have 2 bloggies before me, which unfortunately for me to say that it ish covered with spiderwebs..hehe. but i just had this sudden intention of finding a perfect weblog service for me to blog on my things,whatever rants or stuffs, and so here comes the birth of my personal blog, dylussionist. =D its quite a clean blog and i just like the way they present it in terms of being clean and simple. the only thing i would be worried of ish, how long would i continue to use this as my hangout? would it end up like my previous 2 bloggies which i think ish suffering from a severe web parasiting syndrome? xD well, we will see it by then =D

so..hows my life after 2 and a half months since i flown off from my pretty-insane university life? quite ok i must say. i've tasted my first graduation, i found my first job here, i've moved away from cyberia which i really missed its environment ..sobs*, i've tasted how ish the real working life out there, i've earned my first salary, i've tasted the feeling of paying back my mom instead the other way round =D, and yesh i've found a him too =D hahaha. so yea...things have been happening fast for me. but you know what, i still miss my days of the pass, my days of being insane without any care of the world, my days of spending most of my times goofing around with my friends, my days of suffering from stress and difficult time with my friends, it's all irreplaceble. i miss you all, really i do. thanks so much for giving me such memories *huggles*

i wonder how about all u guys out there? ^^