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cleanse my face. put on my mascara.

so i have decided.

easy as it seems, going it through was a definite hassle. the term has been all over my mind for god knows how long.

as at of now, im still being doubtful. doubtful of how this would turn up. contemplating . mysterious yet thrilling, alluring my mind. how am i not to caught in it?

you tell me.

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hypocrites. i call them.

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countless thoughts running through my head. so much things to say. so many words to speak. but i cant find my voice...

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Horoscope for the day.




"Someone may want to be encouraging to you, but you might not receive the message correctly. Don't mistake silence for negativity. If you aren't sure what others are thinking, just ask them outright. But remember that everyone has conflicting motives now, so the advice you get could be more confusing than practical. Be patient; clarity will return in the next couple of days.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 "




how true are thou are.

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Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrdy flu is attacking me again! i've been sneezing non-stop since last night and people have been looking at me with weird stares in the lrt. just because im the one making those loud noises...sigh...sorry la...cannot control (and if i do control..my face will be looking like someone who is holding shit in her ass..and then it will add the doubles of weird stares)...what to do =( my nose is soooo runny that i feel like plucking my nose right out of my face! seriously! *sobs* see! my goo is gooing out from my nose again! wheres my tissue....arghhh wheres my tissue ah????? *frantically searching for tissue over mountains of used tissues* why am i always sick wan =(

any well known home made remedy to calm my nose for a bit? i only know one though, the traditional drink of hot honey with lemon.

please pretty please? *sobs sobs*

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Friday today and it is cold in the office indeed. hazy clouds covered the whole overland of skies. the smell of something burning instantly touching the tip of my nostrils. is there something burning again somewhere? i wonder. cars are not much on the road. seems like everyone are still on holidays. caught on something about space adventure on the radio. im interested with that. i wanna go too.

friday today and i feel so delighted with it. happy hours will soon come in the matter of hours. be patient my dear. as lots of works are still waiting for me to tend to. should i go for a movie tonight? or should i be pigging out on my bed? i need to wash my hair and do the laundry you know.

friday today and im feeling so lazy. i find being invisible highly attractive. why is that? being something there but you're not there. when's the time gonna start? i start to think that it wont start at all. waiting and waiting. waiting for an invisible friend. an imaginary friend. i would cocoon myself.


friday today and im sharing my feelings with my imaginary friend.

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I can still hear the fireworks in the distance. bright lights surrounds KLCC that shouts attention. huge bang of sounds. crackles of splash. patters of feet ran along the hallway of my apartment. childrens and mothers gathered around the rooftop just to get a glimpse of the fireworks. it seems that theres no space left for me to join in. i watched through my window instead. thing is only a tiny wee bit of sparkles can be seen in such distance. and somehow that still keeps the excite in me.

so now that 2007 is gone, here comes another year. 2008. oh my, how the days are gone. just like that. i don't even know what i have done for the past year. days just pass by without any acknowledgment. my acknowledgment to be exact.

resolutions you ask? i've never made any resolutions for myself. weird? why make any resolutions when you dont bother on making it a reality. and thats so like me. i use to make those back when i was in highschool, but unfortunately, i failed to keep those things up to it. since then, i've stopped making any for fear of not keeping any of it. so do you still make resolutions for yourself?

Happy New Year! =D

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so ya, give your 100% at work, ok? don't procrastinate and don't keep superpoking your friends in facebook! i know you're doing that =p. this make sense a lot to me. but does that mean i have to work the most today? awww....*wishing friday fast fast come~*

Have a great wednesday ahead! =)

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Recently i have found out most of the people i know are not anywhere in malaysia. some went for further studies overseas, some went to work at other places. now i do really admire their courage of taking their life a step forward and experience the different environments out there rather than being in their comfort zone. and of course to pursue what they have always wanted in their life. because that's what i would want to do too.

i have been thinking lately to have my own destination too. i want to go somewhere else, perhaps europe or the uk, or anywhere overseas, as long as its out of my own home, to pursue something that i've never done before. long ago, me and one of my good friend, have dreamed of going to europe, backpacking, and working along the trip in europe, its a pleasant wish for us, we have planned and thought that when we reach to a certain age, we promise each other to do something out of ordinary before our life really settle down. but recently, i found out i cant wait any longer anymore than that. after reading numerous stories and stories of people traveling around the world, something just keeps reminding me of my dream, being closer to me, hanging in my head, telling me to do what my heart is thinking. but it is something that's too large of a decision to make. to make it happen, i have to put down everything that im having in my life right now, everything that i have build. i certainly will sacrifice everything for my own dream. but i guess, its till the matter of time, and money. maybe you would think these are just some reasons, but it is not for me.

not that im unhappy with my life right now (except for a few rants here and there), but it's something that is incomplete within me if i decide to push the thought away from me. it's telling me to look up and to conquer the sky and to look for a sky that belongs to me. i really wish to fulfill that part of me.

should i take england?

or perhaps japan?

oh no, my definite yes! place. paris!

while doing my research for my purpose, i found a way that is quite interesting. that is, to be an Au Pair. and what is Au Pair? an au pair placement is an arrangement where an unmarried person between 17 and 30 years old lives for up to two years in a foreign country as a member of a local family, helping in the home for a set number of hours a day, often with at least two full days off per week. In return, they receive a reasonable allowance and a private room. you can try look it up in wiki about this. i found a few sites which is very useful for au pair placement, one of them, Au Pair Replacement, provides an extensive options for an aupair or the host family, each of the party are able to choose and browse through of all the registered host family or the au pairs available in the website. when a family found a suitable au pair, they will communicate to that certain individual for further communication.

now i do really think this a good thing to start for people who have the same wish as me =D perhaps i should start thinking too. well actually, i've registered myself =D who knows? dreams are something we should create by our own hands, am i right?


photos credits to the original author

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As the quiet night begins to creep in, im all alone at his house. his is out somewhere attending his colleague's wedding dinner and no, i wasn't invited. im getting abit boring over here. was reading PS I love you, but read awhile and felt abit of a headache. saw the pc, might as well surf around, face-booking and blog awhile. it has been awhile since i blogged. i used to love blogging. in fact, i used to blog a lot back when i was still in the university, but i stopped two years ago. you ask my why? im not sure either, maybe its just the assignments were so heavy that i havent got the time to blog anything at all, or maybe, im just plain being lazy or something. i remember i used to love writing, and thats what got me into blogging in the first place. when i started blogging two years ago, blogmosphere doesn't even exist yet. blogging was a relatively strange new place or some called it media to most of us. i discovered blogging by accident. i was surfing the net and soon found some bloggers that have interesting posts that i kept coming and going for more. i find it very interesting to have an online diary instead of writing in the traditional way on a book. at that time, i find it to be very fascinating. and thats when i decided to start my own blog. i started to write things about my life, my friends, my studies. practically everything, and it somehow attracted a few readers, with 100 over unique visitors visiting and commenting my blog. but than two years ago and i just left my blog abandoned. just like that. and then, two years later, i tried to blog again, when blogmosphere is already such a hit, you can even find any tom, dick and harry haver their own blogs. blogging is already a type of a new medium, and not anymore as a personal diary, i wonder if this is the right thing to happen? maybe it is, considering that everyone is enjoying the success for their blogger celebrity status. but sometimes, i missed the times when everyone is still under anonymously, where everyone will write anything and wont get harassed by some sort of government related authorities. blogging is already such a hit, till even the government has warned an issue on the content that we all are writing. so where have all the freedom of blogging gone to?

blogging, can be very addictive. when i started to blog, the bug just got into me. and i cant figure why i would continue to write and write about my life. i knew that nobody would even care about what i wrote, well who would? but thats the exciting part. you will write about the life of yours, be it private, happy, or anger, its just to release something inside you. and it's fun to write something that you've always wanted to. i started to write a blog because i love writing, with that, i was thinking, well why not, i might be able to practice my writing skill on the blog instead. so, i began to write and write and write, till i get the hang of it. my blog's sudden increase of unique hits a day motivates me to write more. i get to see my readers to leave some comments on my post, it's really amusing to see what they have commented, mostly are encouraging comments, which encourages me more and making me realized that, hey! someone do actually read my blog! this really score a big point to me! and that, began my journey into the world of virtual diary.

so now, two years later, im still trying to start another new blog of mine, another new chapter of myself.

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im on my last day of onleave. will be back to hell tomorrow. and boss even asked to be back on saturday. damn. cant' you even leave me a lone for awhile? Im still contemplating whether to make a decision. I just got confirmed which has delayed me myself of the process. Some say i better to take that plunge. but im still doubtful. doubtful with all damn things. i have lost my goal. i dunno where else i should go to once i've did it. i admit this, im lost once again.

on a happier note, i just love the fireworks in putrajaya. omg, its just absolutely magnificent. u know u just wont get to see it normal in kl, even in new year eves or merdeka eves. its just so different. in fact im left in awe. how the hell the people do those works, i wonder. hehe anyways, yes its worth a trip to putrajaya just to see that 20 minutes of fireworks display. its a short time, but believe me, its worth every shyt of your time =D its a pity i dont have any photos with me, i might upload it within sometimes =D

aww...i missed the finale! sobs sobs!

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